I think I should correct myself on the anger front.

I am no killer, like Riddick is.

But I am a lunatic, like Masked Rider Oja is.


This is him, Oja, a.k.a. Takera Asakura in the show.

"His history is laced with violence. The need to fight is so much a part of him that, when held in a cell, he started slamming his head against the bars without caring when his skin broke and he bled. When Kitaoka refused to defend him and mocked him, his rage was tremendous." This was taken from a profile of Oja, on a Masked Rider site.

And that bold sentence? Sounds very much like me, though I'll change 'fight' to 'violence.'

Just this morning, my mom and bro talked so loudly in the living room I was awakened. I woke up (half-conscious) and walked to the bathroom, came out, and growled at them, "Why do you talk so loud?" and then went back to my bed after slamming my room door. Only thing: I laid in bed, still semi-conscious, but I felt a murderous rage take over me.

It filled me till I felt nothing else except for the need for pain, for violence, and I punched the wall very hard. Whole arm throbbed, pain in knuckles, and I sensed a sort of beauty in that. Heh.

I think I now understand that rage is indeed a part of me that I control very tightly, but it seeps into the conscious part of my mind frequently. Heh.

Yeah, I am like Oja. Heh.