I swear if I had to work one more day in the NSEWT shop, I'll go wacked.

Too small. Too small.

I've gone up another level, my skills. Heh. I can now give proper ear care. Yey...

Dunno why. Today's like the ear-care day or something. A was just sitting there and doing her stuff most of the time, and I just gave ear-care after ear-care, calling for her only when I couldn't poke the hole through.

Pengs.

Reading Orca's blog made me have a realization on something.

Choice is a point in-between nihilism and human emotions. However, if there is nihilism, then feelings and human emotions are negligible, because there are no such things as feelings. If so, everything is arbitrary--there is no truth/untruth, good/evil, right/wrong etc.

And, if everything is arbitrary, nihilism occurs because there is no value for anything at all. This, in no value, the greatest value is created.

And confusion is created, cuz I'm confusing myself further.

*raises brows* Or is it because I'm tired after work?

I went to the pharmacy to ask on the pills and hysterectomy again. Pills...the doc there said that it might cause cancer. Hysterectomy...definitely lead to bone brittleness, lifelong dependance on hormonal pills, wrinkles etc. etc.

Am I scared?

Not really. But I'll take Ysi's advice first, and go for the pills first. Going to the polyclinic either Wednesday or Friday next week for further advice.

I'm finally taking active steps to stopping this damned thing.

I need sleep. I need a break.

Ain't gettin' either.

Okay. That's it. I'm officially obsessed with Dream.