Damned damned damned!

I really, fuggin' hate it when any of my friends hurt. Makes me hurt like nobody's business too, but I don't show it. I never do.

I know Taxi usually puts on a humorous, brave front. But there are times when the kid really hurts. Cyril was the one who introduced him to me. But now, Taxi and Cyril don't talk anymore; Cyril and I rarely talk, cuz he's been real busy with his software...the times we manage to catch each other were spent catching up...

But it isn't like the old times. I miss it. It hurts damned much. Maybe we've both changed too much that personalities don't match that much anymore. Or maybe I'm the one who've changed so much. Either way...things aren't what they are. And it damned hell hurts.

It seems like I'm closer to Taxi now. Oddly, the kid is the only one who can make me grin so widely my mouth hurts. I guess, we're not so different after all. He's a good kid, despite all my teasings and stuff. He likes to antagonize me, and I do the same. But in the end, we're still good friends.

I'm going to help him all I can. Even from this end. What little I can. And, once my course finishes, I'm going to do my best to visit him and see what we can do together. I'm not going to let him fall. Not him.

Not any of my friends. Not if I can help it.